I realise that this post probably says more about me and my mental state than it does about urw, but I am looking for some constructive advice.
When I started playing a couple of years ago I died quite regularly, mainly due to stupidity as I learned what was important to survival. Then I started a real character, spent the end of winter months in an out of the way spot, mainly fishing, trapping and burning a lot of firewood. In the spring I explored to find a better site for a homestead. I found a site where I could net fish and set some trap lines and there was sufficient growing plants so food security was not a problem, and I set about clearing some land for crops and building a modest log cabin. This was where boredom set in, it was like going to work everyday, something irl that I gave up decades ago. I found it harder everyday to actually load the savegame and continue.
I tried starting several dozen new characters, with different conditions, usually getting harder to play, in case the challenges could overcome the boredom. Usually after 3 months I have reached the point of food security, decide I have won the game, then commit suicide by swimming naked as far as I can. Obviously I am missing something or I am not suited to this particular game.
Any advice would be welcomed.